Day 6: The date.

It’s Day 6.

So much for the “Daylight Diet” last night. I didn’t eat dinner until 11pm.  I’d planned this late night picnic before and so I decided to just go with it. I can confirm that this morning I certainly felt a bit groggy because of it.

What follows is addressed to the ladies in the house. While I don’t mean to exclude men, and perhaps there are lessons to be learned here for them, too, I want to address something of importance to me.

Ladies,

You know that feeling when someone looks you “up and down” in the wrong way? Or the feeling that someone is “checking you out”? It’s a threatening feeling–a violation of one’s space. It causes us to turn inward, to feel self conscious and introverted.

Imagine the opposite of that. Imagine a situation where you’re with a person who GIVES you space. Someone who doesn’t appear to have judgment in their eyes at all. It’s not that he is unconscious or just doesn’t notice you, but that he doesn’t appear to have an agenda. He doesn’t care if you have mascara on or not. He doesn’t care if you wear pumps or flats, and wouldn’t even notice whether or not you have cellulite on the back of your thighs. He’s just there, with you, because he wants to know WHO YOU ARE.

Well, that’s how I felt last night.

No offense to the men in the house, but I’ve never been with a person and felt that comfortable. I don’t think it would have mattered if I’d had on a designer tomato red bikini or a parka. It was ME he wanted to get to know, and so because of that, it was one of the most satisfying date experiences I’ve ever had.

I’ll let you know how things progress, if they progress. I’ve been through enough life experience to know that I’m keeping my eyes on my goals:

1. Creating a thriving community of women ON FIRE about health and about life!

2. Living my passion and expressing it passionately in the work I do.

3. Commit to the things and people that make life work–that make me stronger, more able and that AFFIRM who I am.

4. To be, as Sebastian calls me, “The Best Mom in the Whole Wide University.”

5. To be unapologetically ME, and to have that be a good thing with the people around me.

And so, while I was all giddy and playful last night, this morning I feel a general sense of calm, appreciation and…

…serenity.

I know I have a lot of enthusiasm, I have playfulness and all these glorious action-filled emotions. But I think serenity sits just slightly higher than these on the ladder of life’s expressions and it comes with a certain sort of ease–like you just know all is well in your world and it always will be. And you don’t fight against your mess and you don’t race against a clock. You just ARE and in that space the world and all its elements just sorta fall in place like pieces of a puzzle. You hit all the green lights when you drive, you make it to the bus on time and Sally calls you just 2 minutes after you’d had her “on your mind”.

That’s a fun place to be.

I think I’m going to sit there for a while, and I’ll get back to you later.

Still love you like glue, Snickerdoodle.

Thanks for being here. Thanks for being you, too.

TeeeeRAW!